As 2018 came and went I had more time than usual to think. As a person who loves organization and goals, this is not a New Years norm for me. Normally I am ramped up and ready to go with several goals in each of my previously specified categories all organized in an attractive layout. Having had ankle surgery four days before 2019 I couldn’t bring myself to make up any New Year’s Resolutions. I found myself tired and enjoying the rest. I have been going at full speed for so long when I first broke my ankle it was a nice respite from the go-go-going. I also went part time at my work starting in the fall (.75 time) which meant I would be sleeping in a glorious hour, arriving at work later, and not having to prep for another new class. However this past fall I found myself unable to enjoy the autumn leaves and the scents of the season because I was so busy planning lessons, grading papers, and spending lots and lots and lots of time at physical therapy. My dreams of getting to bed on time, having no work on weekends, and having time to read were just that, dreams.
I guess I’m trying to say, or maybe justify my not wanting to have New Years Resolutions. There is already so much pressure and so many distractions, and my dream of less stress to get to, why would I want to put the pressure back on?? I have read about people choosing words of the year instead of making resolutions. I feel like 2018 my unofficial word was BRAVE. I decided that 2019 I would make it official. I made no New Year’s Resolutions but I would find a word. The word. My word. I searched the web and had a word that stuck out to me instantly and intensely. It was not a word I was expecting giving my desire to turn it down a notch, but my word for 2019 is most definitely IGNITE.
Ignite passion, ignite dreams, ignite spirituality, ignite joy, ignite longevity.
I want to ignite passion in my relationship with my spouse. I want to ignite my dreams and find a passion. So many people speak of finding their passion. I don’t know mine yet. I want to ignite my spirituality. With the hustle and bustle of being a working millennial, my spiritual relationship with my father in Heaven is in no way what it should be and is in pretty poor shape. I relished in the announcement of the church for the new home study program- my chance to ignite spirituality! I want to ignite joy. I envy those people who seem to be living life so joyfully. I want to find that for myself. I want to ignite longevity. This is one I stole from the hubby, L. He is all about not just being strong or “in shape”, but doing things and making choices to be able to live life at a high quality of physical health for as long as he can. To me this is much more liberating than trying to becoming skinny or sticking to a certain diet or working like mad to lose those extra five pounds.
What does ignite mean to you?
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